My wedding day is quickly approaching. There was a point in time where I felt completely on top of things. And slowly, that feeling is slipping farther and farther away from me. Can we go back just a few weeks ago to where April didn’t seem so close? It’s not the actual marriage part that is bothering me so much, it’s the show that comes along with it. All the immense planning that goes into something that lasts such a short amount of time. The stress of making sure you have this, and that this is done correctly, and that all of these things have been ordered, and on and on and on. Ugh. My spare bedroom is slowly turning into a room that collects “wedding” things, just sitting there waiting for that special day when they all get to make their beautiful debut. The flower crown the I will probably only wear once.The pink dress that is hanging up in the closet that will only get to come out for a short time to grace the world with it’s beauty. Eventually it will all come together, bit by bit.
And not every day is like this, I try to remind myself as much as possible when I start to feel this way this it doesn’t matter. In the grand scheme of things, the only thing that matters is the fact that I will be marrying the man I love that day. That’s it. So, on days like today when the world around me feels as if it is spinning out of control, here’s my reminder to just breathe.